How to Protect Your Energy in a World That Wants You Loud and Empty

💟In a world where being chronically online is the norm, with different opinions and perspectives flying around it’s quite easy to get sucked into all the chaos, sometimes loosing your sense of self in the process.

Protecting your energy isn’t selfish. It’s survival.

The world will offer you noise but it’s you who chooses to swallow it. The world will invite your exhaustion but it’s you who says yes.

Understand that no one is coming to rescue your peace, not the fake dopamine from doomscrolling, not the algorithm, not your followers. You decide what stays and what starves.

💁💬Thomas Mann said “Solitude gives birth to the original in us, to beauty unfamiliar and perilous.”

Protecting your energy is your job and nobody else can do it for you. 

💭Here are five (5) how to do it without apology:

📵Mute more than you unfollow:

You don’t have to announce your departure. Just go quiet.

Let your silence rearrange the room. Silence is sacred, so is your energy.

You don’t owe the world your voice every time it demands it.

💬Steve Jobs said “Don’t let the noise of others’ opinions drown out your own inner voice.”

💆Ritualize your rest:

Sleep is not weakness, It is sacred defiance.

Let rest be your refusal to be consumed. Rest without apology.

Tired isn’t a badge of honour, stop wearing your burnout like proof of your worth.

 

💘Leave things unposted:

Not every joy must be proven, not every wound deserves a gallery.

Stop oversharing, some things lose their power when spoken too soon.

Protect your process. Speak it only when it’s ripe.

💬Franz Kafka said “All human mistakes stem from impatience… a premature break-off of method, a too eager grasp at the apparent thing.”

 

💡Say no without a reason:

“No” is a full spell, let it echo. Say no, and mean it.

No is not cruelty. It’s clarity.

It’s putting yourself first, it’s selflove.

 

👻Make mystery your boundary:

The world will try to make you empty, because full people are harder to control.

Protect your energy like it’s the last holy thing in you. Because maybe it is.

They don’t need to know what you’re doing, it’s none of their business.

Discipline your access, sit with your own silence.

💬Franz Kafka said “don’t bend; don’t water it down; don’t try to make it logical; don’t edit your own soul according to the fashion. Rather, follow your most intense obsessions mercilessly.”

Not everything knocking deserves to be let in.

 

💭💗In summary, you are not here to be loud for the sake of being heard, you are not here to be emptied for applause.

Protect your energy like it's your final form of freedom, because it is.

Less victim, more sovereign. Own the responsibility of keeping your own gates.

 

Practicing Mindfulness

 

💆Mindfulness is you catching yourself in the moment, not drifting into the past, not stressing about the future, just being right here, right now. It's awareness, but soft. Attention, but not forceful. No judgment. No fixing. Just noticing. It’s when I stop running and actually feel my breath. When I don’t push my feelings down, I sit with them. When I let things be what they are, even me.

☺What does it mean?

💬Mindfulness is the practice of paying full attention to the present moment with nonjudgmental awareness. It’s about noticing your thoughts, feelings, and sensations as they are, without trying to change or avoid them. It’s not zoning out, it’s zoning in. “Mindfulness means paying attention in a particular way, on purpose, in the present moment, and nonjudgmentally.” (Jon Kabat-Zinn, 1994)

💬The art of mindfulness has roots in ancient Eastern spiritual traditions, especially                Buddhism, where it’s called sati in Pali. It was central to the Buddha's teachings as part of the Eightfold Path, a guide for ending suffering.

💬In the 20th century, mindfulness was adapted into secular practice by Jon Kabat Zinn, a molecular biologist. In 1979 he founded the Mindfulness Based Stress Reduction (MBSR) program at the University of Massachusetts Medical School. This brought mindfulness into Western medicine and psychology, helping it gain scientific credibility. Today, mindfulness is widely used in therapy, education, business, and even prisons not as religion, but as a mental skill.

☺Why you should practice Mindfulness:

💟Because our minds do the most. Anxiety, overthinking, old wounds, future fears, it all lives in our head. "The mind is a scattered thing. It is like a monkey jumping from branch to branch. It is restless, undisciplined, and it must be tamed." (Imhrat Khan, in Roald Dahl's The Wonderful Story of Henry Sugar).

💟Mindfulness brings me back into my body. Into the now. It’s helped Slow down the noise. Notice my patterns. Respond instead of react. Breathe deeper, sleep better, cry safely.

💟Mindfulness isn’t just calming, it rewires your brain. Research shows it reduces stress, anxiety, and depression. It improves attention and focus. Lowers rumination (overthinking).

💟Mindfulness builds emotional regulation, increases self awareness and compassion. It also helps break reactive patterns. 

💟Practicing mindfulness lowers blood pressure and heart rate. It also improves sleep and immune response. Reduces chronic pain symptoms.

☺Mindfulness in Healing, Survival Mode, or Trauma Recovery:

💜Survival mode keeps you hypervigilant and reactive. Mindfulness interrupts that loop.

💜It Creates safety in the body (grounding). 

💜It Helps separate now from then (trauma memories).

💜It reduces fight/flight/freeze responses.

💜It builds capacity to feel without being overwhelmed.

💜“Mindfulness reconnects people with their bodies and with the present moment, providing          an anchor in the storm of trauma.” (Bessel van der Kolk, 2014).

☺How to Practice Mindfulness:

💗You do not need a mat or incense to do it, just your attention.

💗Sometimes it’s just breathing. Like... inhale, exhale. That’s it.

💗It’s not about being still and silent all the time. It’s about being present, even in the noise.

💗Pause, find a quiet moment.

💗Focus on your breath, body, or surroundings.

💗Observe, notice your thoughts or feelings without reacting.

💗When the mind wanders (it will), gently bring it back.

 ☺ Techniques you can try:

💟Mindful breathing, inhale, exhale, notice.

💟Body scan, notice each body part in turn.

💟Mindful walking, focus on each step and sensation.

💟Mindful eating, slow down and really taste.

💟Noting, silently label thoughts or emotions (“thinking,” “sadness,” etc.)

 ☺How Mindfulness Changes the Brain / Identity:

💜Mindfulness literally reshapes the brain (based on MRI studies):

💜Increased gray matter in prefrontal cortex (decision-making), hippocampus (memory, learning), anterior cingulate cortex (attention), reduced activity in the amygdala (fear center)

💜It also creates space between stimulus and response, allowing you to choose who you want to be, not just react automatically.

💜Finally, mindfulness cultivates consciousness and observing the mind instead of being caught in it. Start practicing mindfulness today.

💜Mindfulness lets me witness it all without becoming it.

💜That’s power.

💜That’s freedom.

 

 

👇Read further:

Kabat-Zinn, J. (2003). Mindfulness-based interventions in context: Past, present, and future. Clinical Psychology: Science and Practice, 10(2), 144–156. https://doi.org/10.1093/clipsy/bpg016The art of mindfulness.

Tang, Y. Y., Hölzel, B. K., & Posner, M. I. (2015). The neuroscience of mindfulness meditation. Nature Reviews Neuroscience, 16(4), 213–225. https://doi.org/10.1038/nrn3916

van der Kolk, B. A. (2014). The body keeps the score: Brain, mind, and body in the healing of trauma. Penguin Books.

 

 

Decidedly NOT in survival mode?

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💭👀Have you noticed your nervous system is stuck in fight or flight mode, freeze mode, or fawn mode due to chronic stress, trauma, or overwhelm?. It could indicate that you live in survival mode,  it happens when your body and mind are constantly focused on getting through the day and not thriving, just surviving.

 💬This basically means your emotions, thoughts, and behaviors are controlled by a constant sense of danger leaving you disconnected, exhausted, and reactive. In survival mode, the brain prioritizes threat detection over logic and long-term thinking, flooding the body with stress hormones and impairing focus, memory, and decision making (Marvar & Liberzon, 2022).

❤Signs you live in survival mode:

🧡You feel overwhelmed, emotionally disconnected, constantly on edge, and trapped in overthinking, self-doubt, and fear that you’re always falling behind.

🧡Your body is tense, exhausted, and restless, often stuck in a cycle of poor sleep, unexplained pain, and hyper alertness that never seems to switch off.

🧡you stay busy to avoid crashing, struggle to rest without guilt, avoid what overwhelms you, and rely on coping habits just to make it through.

🧡you say yes when you want to say no, just to keep peace or avoid conflict.You rely on food, sleep, scrolling, or distractions to escape how you feel.

🧡You feel isolated, unsure of who you are or what you need, disconnected from joy or purpose, and afraid that if you stop holding everything together you will fall apart.

❤Why this happens?

🧡It does not mean you’re lazy or unmotivated. Your body just does not feel safe enough to relax. You might feel numb, disconnected, angry, anxious, spaced out, or like you’re just “pushing through” each day. That is survival mode. And it often starts when you have had to deal with too much for too long, experiences like trauma, instability, being let down by people you depended on, or even just a constant fear of “not being enough.”

🧡Survival mode develops in response to prolonged stress, trauma, unsafe environments, or systemic hardship that teaches the brain the world is not safe. you feel extremely overwhelmed, stuck, depleted, and unable to plan or engage with life beyond daily survival tasks.

❤Shifting Out of Survival Mode:

🧡To exit survival mode, you must first create physical and emotional safety, then gently retrain your nervous system to trust calm through small routines, self-regulation, and supportive relationship. Identifying and reducing sources of chronic threat (to the extent possible), this may include unsafe people, unstable housing, or financial chaos. Add structure, boundaries, and calming routines, even small ones like drinking water at the same time every day or limiting overstimulation.

🧡Try grounding techniques like feet flat, deep slow breathing, somatic practices like yoga, dance, walking, or even long exhales (which stimulate the vagus nerve). Avoid trying to "think" your way to calm, it rarely ever works while dysregulated. The nervous system shifts toward healing when it perceives predictability and control. Survival mode lives in the body, so the healing must begin there too.

🧡Stability tells your brain: “It’s okay to rest now.” You can establish simple, nondemanding rituals like journaling for 3 minutes, stretching before sleep, morning light exposure, doing  something nice for yourself or going on solo walks. Just keep it easy and repeatable. Consistency tells your nervous system it can stop being on high alert. Structure is a powerful signal of safety, and micro routines help retrain the brain to predict calm rather than chaos (Russo et al., 2024).

🧡I personally prefer taking notes and journaling patterns and triggers so you can name what once felt overwhelming, very helpful when you do it consistently. Go slow. Go gently. To get out of survival mode, you often need to unlearn the idea that survival is your only job. When you feel safe enough, work with a trauma informed therapist.

🧡Healing is remembering you are more than your coping. Reengage in things that remind you of your creativity, play, read something, use your imagination, find new hobbies, even rest. Allow yourself moments of curiosity or joy. Let yourself become more than your stress. Restoration of personal identity and agency is a core marker of recovery.

❤Healing is a set of gentle, repeated messages you send to your brain and body:

💓“You’re safe now. You don’t have to fight all the time. You get to be here.”

💓“It is safe to slow down, even just a little.”       💓“I am allowed to rest.”

💓“I do not have to earn peace.”                             💓“I am not behind. I am healing.”

💓“I survived, and now I’m allowed to live.”        💓“Small steps are still steps.”

💓“My body is doing the best it can.”                     💓“I get to take up space without explaining.”

 

 

 

👉Read further:

Marvar, P. J., & Liberzon, I. (2022). Post-traumatic stress disorder: Clinical and translational neuroscience from cells to circuits. Nature Neuroscience, 25(9), 1147–1158. https://doi.org/10.1038/s41593-022-01128-9.  

Juruena, M. F., Eror, F., Cleare, A. J., & Young, A. H. (2024). Stress and stress responses: A narrative literature review. Psychological Medicine, 54(2), 207–216. https://doi.org/10.1017/S0033291723001933.

Alon-Tirosh, M., & Hasson-Ohayon, I. (2023). How past trauma impacts emotional intelligence: A systematic review and meta-analysis. Journal of Affective Disorders, 338, 124–137. https://doi.org/10.1016/j.jad.2023.05.041.

Smith, L. V., Brown, D. L., & Jones, R. M. (2019). Keeping your guard up: Hypervigilance among urban residents affected by community and police violence. Journal of Urban Health, 96(5), 661–672. https://doi.org/10.1007/s11524-019-00381-4.

Russo, S. J., Murrough, J. W., Han, M. H., Charney, D. S., & Nestler, E. J. (2024). Neurobiological basis of stress resilience. Neuron, 112(3), 389–407. https://doi.org/10.1016/j.neuron.2023.12.005.

Lanius, R. A., Bluhm, R., & Frewen, P. A. (2018). Neural hypervigilance in trauma-exposed women: An fMRI and biomarker study [Doctoral dissertation, City University of New York]. CUNY Academic Works. https://academicworks.cuny.edu/gc_etds/2484/.

 

Economic Instability and Your Psychology

Current situation and psychological Effects

The persistance of gross economic misconduct and mismanagement can lead to longterm psychological effects on a population, including chronic stress, learned helplessness, depression, anxiety, loss of trust in institutions, leading to a survival first mindset and generational trauma. These effects alter individual wellbeing and collective mental health, often becoming entrenched even after economic recovery. This mismanagement and instability causes inadequacies in the lives of people conditioning them to expect less, dream less, make short term plans as a result of conflicts and economic fluctuations that interrupt peace and national security. Economic mismanagement does not just damage markets it breaks minds (Wagland & Taylor, 2021). 

Economic instability and mismangement psychologically preconditions its survivors to develop deepseated internalized beliefs that restrict how they see themselves, their abilities, and what is possible. These are not just personal flaws they are socially conditioned survival responses to broken systems. It shapes how people see themselves, each other, and the future. Living in a financially limited country can impact the political or social atmosphere to an extent of projecting a scarcity mindset unto its citizens.

The scarcity mindset refers to a mental framework dominated by the perception of lack whether it is a lack of money, time, food, opportunities, love, or stability. When people feel they do not have enough of something essential, their focus narrows intensely on that thing, often at the cost of long-term planning, rational decision making, or broader thinking. So next time when you let yourself believe something is not possible, ask yourself if that is true or if you have let temporary situations influence what you believe is possible. 

Some of such limiting beliefs include but not limited to:

“No matter what I do, nothing will change.” FALSE! change is infact the only constant thing in this universe and you can decide to let things happen to you or you can choose what direction.

“Success is only for the corrupt or connected”. Another false statement; success is actually for those who have sufficiently wanted it. sufficiently wanting something requires consistent efforts and diligence towards achieving set goals. 

“I am not capable / worthy”. You are only as capable or worthy as you decide, you decide your identity and how the rest of the world perceives you.

“There is never enough”. There is more than enough my darling, you do not always have to wait to be given. If there is not enough, make more, find more, choose to see and receive abundance.

"Planning is useless". False! if you fail to plan, you plan to fail; this applies to several situatoins and particularly about your life and decisions you make. Also remember that an object in motion stays in motion unless acted upon by an external object. Unless you enforce change in the direction you want it, it will either remain that way or workout in opposite directions. Instead, choose your direction and set your pace.

“The system is broken, so I might as well break the rules too”. This is false, keep yourself accountable for your actions, a system is set through continued actions over time. Learn to exude the energy you wish to experience in the world.

These beliefs and psychological limitations are not inherent traits but conditioned responses to repeated insecurity, injustice, instability, and scarcity. And while they are understandable, they also form mental cages that limit growth, risktaking, creativity, and healing, even when conditions improve.

 

Conclusion

We are only as limited as we let ourselves believe despite economic situations, widespread awareness of the problem mitigates the extent to which it affects us as we seek a way out. Even long after such crisis ends, the psychological scars remain unless there is deep healing, trustbuilding, and reform. Nations around the world have gone through hard times, instability and insecurity but with awareness, consistently dedicated and deliberate efforts were able to rise above it and make positive changes.

 

 

 

Read Further

Haushofer, J., & Fehr, E. (2014). On the psychology of poverty. Science, 344(6186), 862–867. https://doi.org/10.1126/science.1232491.

Lund, C., Breen, A., Flisher, A. J., Kakuma, R., Corrigall, J., Joska, J. A., ... & Patel, V. (2010). Poverty and common mental disorders in low and middle income countries: A systematic review. Social Science & Medicine, 71(3), 517–528.

Richardson, T., Elliott, P., & Roberts, R. (2013). The relationship between personal unsecured debt and mental and physical health: A systematic review and meta-analysis. Clinical Psychology Review, 33(8), 1148–1162. https://doi.org/10.1016/j.cpr.2013.08.009.

Sokol, M. (2023). Financial chains and the uneven geographies of financialisation: Crisis, inequality and the power of finance. Cambridge Journal of Regions, Economy and Society, 16(1), 1–18. https://doi.org/10.1093/cjres/rsac038.

Wagland, S. P., & Taylor, S. (2021). Financial capability and mental health: A longitudinal analysis. Social Science & Medicine, 287, 114353. https://doi.org/10.1016/j.socscimed.2021.114353.

Zhou, M., Wang, J., & Haisken-DeNew, J. P. (2024). Financial strain and mental health: The mediating role of sleep quality. Journal of Health Economics, 88, 102783. https://doi.org/10.1016/j.jhealeco.2023.102783

About Financial Security

 

What does it mean?

Financial security means having stable and consistent income, it also means the ability to meet basic needs such as food, housing, healthcare, electricity, internet, emergency savings, and a plan for the future (vacation, retirement). This security affords us more life choices; being able to afford standard education, travel, quality healthcare and maintaining resilience against unexpected events like job loss, illness, and other financial emergencies. It is less about being rich and more about predictability, control, and freedom. All of which psychologically impacts our lives. 

Living in a capitalist society means everything costs money, and since a capitalist system prioritizes having capital, cost of living such as affording a house in a clean and organized community requires a certain level of income, even affording food requires money, adequate healthcare requires more money, basic amenities such as water and electricity and as if not unbearable enough the prices go up consistently, these are recurrent payments which require money. Consistently affording these requires a significant level of financial security. Recurrent bills which require recurring income.

The current situation 

A comprehensive review of 40 observational studies covering both high and low income countries found a clear, consistent association, the research indicates greater financial stress equals higher depression, especially in low income groups. The experience of being financially secure often brings about emotional stability, confidence, and mental clarity but when it is lacking can trigger stress, anxiety, and feelings of inadequacy. Knowing your basic needs are met, you are protected from emergencies, and you have control over your financial future. The psychological effects of financial security can be deep and yet grossly overlooked especially in a country with so much mismanagement. For an average individual having multiple sources of income eliminates a lot of unnecessary situations (Richardson, Elliott, & Roberts, 2013; Wagland & Taylor, 2021).

In a capitalist society without the assurance of financial security, you live on the edge; between the devil and the blue sea type situation. You either get to work on creating some form of value which can generate income, or you exist in survivor mode. Several studies highlight how financial insecurity at the household level impacts overall economic structure and longterm growth of an economy. When basic amenities, even affording education becomes luxury, the psychological effects on the population extends to the economic structure, stunting growth. When even education becomes unaffordable by a significant portion of a population, this stunts economic growth overtime, with even worse effects for third world economies. 

What this means for me?

For an individual living in a third world country which is in reality not financially secure and lacking efficient economic management itself; with limited employment options and the effects of inflation enforcing currency devaluation, you not only experience and are used to a scarcity mindset, structural mismanagement, economic fluctuations, extreme dualization, reduced quality of life, also as a larger portion of the population is unaware, that becomes but one item on the long list of your concerns as you experience consequent price increases on food items, payments, cost of living; more money buys less, leaving you with less money yet more expenses and recurring bills. More money, less value. As it takes more money to afford even basic amenities, so get more money? Yes, sort of.  Conveniently, you can always make more money despite the inflation causing a hike on the prices of products, goods and services.

 Money being a medium of exchange is used to buy and sell, a store of value which holds its worth over time, a unit of account. Money is important but seeing as money merely communicates the value of something, more value equals more money, so get value. Not just any kind of value, something of recurrent value, something that brings in recurring income, might be a job or business or both for basic survival. Also conveniently, value just like wealth, can be created or built. To build/create value that produces recurring income and eventually wealth, consider that value exists in categories, for this context consider intrinsinc value and exchange value. (see article on types of value; and how it is created). 

What To Do?

The awareness of ongoing economic activities by the larger portion of a country’s population is very much in the interest of everyone involved; enough to cause a positive shift towards growth. Additionally, the number of upcoming privately owned businesses, indicates the growing awareness of the inevitability of complete capitalist takeover in these parts of the world. Exacting a shift or significant change in capitalist economies requires financial buoyance and the involvement of major economic institutions; research shows that those who control finance like banks, investors, asset managers do not just participate in markets, they shape them. In capitalism money is not just power, it is the mechanism by which power is structured, enforced, and multiplied. This concept is central to research by Nitzan & Bichler (2009) "Capital as Power", where wealth is not just a store of value, but a tool of exclusion, governance, and influence.

For an individual in a third world country with an emerging or stunted economy, creating and acquiring value alongside money is your route to financial security despite price instabilities and currency devaluation; and if you decide, generational wealth. I envision economic development of possibly a larger portion of the economy and economic awareness throughout.

 Conclusion

Existing in a poorly managed economic atmosphere is not a good quality of life, if you decide, it is not permanent. Enforcing general awareness on this issue is a great step towards solving the problem, this awareness should extend throughout the population encompassing the substructure. Pick a skill, if you already have a skill, use it, teach it,  start a business, get more skills and build! lets create incredible value.

Read Further: 

Galor, O., & Zeira, J. (1993). Income Distribution and Macroeconomics. Review of Economic Studies, 60(1), 35–52.

 Igan, D., Jip, G., Kyn, U., & Lian, W. (2023). Financial Stress and Economic Activity: Evidence from a New Worldwide Index (IMF Working Paper No. 217). International Monetary Fund.

Lazzarino, A. I., Hamer, M., Gaze, D., Collinson, P., & Steptoe, A. (2013). The association between financial strain and biological risk: Findings from the English Longitudinal Study of Ageing. Psychoneuroendocrinology, 38(9), 1485–1493. https://doi.org/10.1016/j.psyneuen.2012.12.019

Mian, A., Sufi, A., & Verner, E. (2018). Understanding the Macro-Financial Effects of Household Debt: A Global Perspective (IMF Working Paper No. 76). International Monetary Fund.

Nitzan, J., & Bichler, S. (2009). Capital as power: A study of order and creorder. Routledge. https://doi.org/10.4324/9780203876849

Richardson, T., Elliott, P., & Roberts, R. (2013). The relationship between personal unsecured debt and mental and physical health: A systematic review and meta-analysis. Clinical Psychology Review, 33(8), 1148–1162. https://doi.org/10.1016/j.cpr.2013.08.009.

Sokol, M. (2023). Financial chains and the uneven geographies of financialisation: Crisis, inequality and the power of finance. Cambridge Journal of Regions, Economy and Society, 16(1), 1–18. https://doi.org/10.1093/cjres/rsac038.

Wagland, S. P., & Taylor, S. (2021). Financial capability and mental health: A longitudinal analysis. Social Science & Medicine, 287, 114353. https://doi.org/10.1016/j.socscimed.2021.114353

 

In this vessel

The Vessel of the Mind

Here in this vessel

A hundred billion neurons forming one hundred trillion connections contained within

Incredible as it is, yet still just one vessel, or not?

What do I do with this incredibly boundless software  

Certainly not limit this potential by living a purposeless existence.  

Oh how unsatisfactory it is feeling stuck and utterly discontent, but what can I do?

Image: Shutterstock 

 

Limitations

Physically, I can only move a limited distance, but in my head, I travel. I see you, I see us, and it is beautiful.

I do wonder though:

If everything we see and perceive is subject to perspectives and we say that life is painful, then isn't that just how we choose to see it?

Isn't that our chosen perspective, and we live and exist the way we beleive it?

Bound by limitations we created, boundaries set by us.

Ever wondered how much this chosen perspective affects the quality of our experiences? everyday fam.

  

Image: Frances Scoch

   Kafka said

"Don't bend; don't water it down; don't make it logical, don't edit your own soul according to the fashion. Rather, follow your most intense obsessions mercilessly."

  Solitude and Knowledge 

I have decided I want to wallow in the knowledge of the universe, knowledge of existence.  

To exist in solitude.  

"It's just that I belong in the quietest quiet; that's what's right for me," Kafka said.

If there are a thousand and one ways, a million different paths through which we could walk,

A billion results one decision could yield, yet they all lead back to that moment when you looked into my eyes.  

ughh you are my mental cage; what i do when i hate myself.

  

"I felt a miserable specimen, and what's more, not only in your eyes but in the eyes of the whole world, for you were, for me, the measure of all things."

Image: Solitude by Sarah Khalid Khan

  

Overwhelmed by thoughts and a raging desire to accumulate, to acquire knowledge,

To explore the existence of perspectives

The observable reality of each individual

Brain chemistry and experiences dependent on perception of the observable reality.

Image: Solitude by Sarah Khalid Khan

Communicating the Incommunicable

Shared Experiences; I have long wondered if everyone else could see or hear the same things.

   Kafka said:

"I am constantly trying to communicate something incommunicable, to explain something inexplicable, to tell about something I only feel in my bones, and which can only be experienced in those bones," Franz Kafka.

   

This vessel, this mind, a universe within itself. Endless possibilities, boundless potential, yet here I am, confined by the walls of procrastination, mental drain, routine and societal expectations. But in my solitude I find liberation, i find peace.

Image: Solitude by Sarah Khalid Khan

    A World Beyond Limits

   

  I Imagine a Boundless World:

Imagine if you will, an existence where our perspectives are not limited by our immediate surroundings or societal constraints. A world where we are free to explore, to question, to challenge, and to grow. 

 You wouldn't have to imagine if you choose the make it your reality.. chosen perspective? sigh

  Conversations That Matter

I live for conversations that stir the soul, that ignite the fire within, that leave me blissful chaos, yearning for more;

The exchange of unusual ideas

Talk to me about esoteric knowledge

Incite in me the thrill of discovery

   The Quiet Peace 

And in these moments of exploration and discovery, I find a sense of peace.  

A quiet profound peace that comes from knowing that I am not bound by the limitations of my physical world, but only by the limits of my imagination.  

And my imagination knows no bounds.

 

So indulge me, engage with me in these conversations that feel like an outer world experience, that takes us beyond the ordinary, that challenge our perceptions and expand our horizons. 

In the end, it's not about the destination, but the journey:

The journey to self awareness 

The journey of learning

The journey of growth

Here in this vessel I am free.  

Free to explore, to question, to learn, and to grow.  

Free to be me.

Organised Existence

 

I want an organised existence and that I shall get.

Organised existence, a concept I have pondered, for I have lived within the bounds of imposed limitations rather than defined rules. 

Imposed limitations not of my own making, were borrowed from the perspectives of society, allowing external views to shape my boundaries and confine my potential.

I do acknowledge the time spent on pursuits that may not have been the most fruitful; Yet in my defense, my actions were guided by the knowledge I had at the time. It is a curious spectacle, observing how we all navigate similar phases and emotions, albeit under different guises and circumstances, each handling these universal experiences in our distinct ways.

Observing life unfold around us, a mosaic of existence where each individual follows their unique path, marked by the passage of time. I find myself an observer, alive and questioning my purpose, as if my role were merely to witness the lives of others quietly noticing patterns in behaviour. Aware in the moment but not enjoying the moment to the extent that I am oblivious of my actions, or others'.

The thought crosses my mind: would a less analytical approach to life feel any less inadequate, like it seems most people are; Not seeing the hands of capitalism shaping people's concepts of value. Not seeing the social constructs that exist and how they shape socialisation patterns. Not observing the patterns in human behaviour, understanding why they live the way they do from their own perspective as a means to understand the reason behind each action. 

In this observance patterns emerge, differences become apparent, and while I am fully present, I often find myself detached from the essence of these moments.

Yet acceptance has been my teacher, revealing that these layers of understanding will not be evident or significant to all. Perspectives vary widely, and the beauty of our collective existence lies in this diversity of understanding.

... Perspectives exist, and oh do they vary.

In hindsight, I will handle myself better.